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Much Love!!
Mar

Time To Be Honest

I debated on starting a new blog, which was why I was away for the last couple of days.  Just trying to figure out things, and deciding on what I am going to do next.

I came to the conclusion that I'm going to just stick with one blog, be honest, and besides keeping up with one blog will be easier than having two. 

I feel a lot of the time I am not 100% honest...honest with myself.  I am speaking of my weight issue, health issues, and my all around happiness.  I spend a lot of time pretending that I don't have a weight issue, by eating whatever I want to, not fully accepting my Diabetes, and allowing myself to have bad days without feeling guilty. 

My Weight:

For someone with the wealth of information that I have about health, clean eating, Non Processed ect. you would think that I would be skinny Mini.  But that is not the case.  And you want to know why?  Cause I don't practice what I know.  I preach and share with others what I know, but in turn don't follow my own advise.  I often think, Who would follow what I have to say when I look the way I do?...Taking Health advise from a Fat girl.  I want to change this!!!  I want to inspire others by my actions not my words!!!
I try to act like I do not have a weight issue when I am around others.  By this I mean, I usually eat what I want, even though I know I shouldn't.  Cause Heaven For Bid someone know that I'm on some sort of diet.  But really I have to face the fact, just looking at me they know I have a weight issue.  I guess I just have to get over it.  And besides, why do I feel that being on a diet is shameful?  When really I am helping myself become healthier.  So I should be really shouting it from the roof tops!!! 

I Am Diabetic

I know I have shared my story of being diabetic on my blog before, but thats about as far as it goes.  Again I was feeling shame.  That I let myself get so out of sorts that, that was what caused my diabetes.  That is was my fault, and that I am a bad person for not realizing earlier that I had a problem. 
The other night I was checking my blood sugars at work on break and a fellow co-worker "caught me" and asked if I was diabetic cause they were too.  And it was the first time I shared that with anyone.  I don't plan on yelling this from the roof tops, but I am not going to feel any shame!  Checking my blood sugars shouldn't be embarrassing, it shows that I am taking control!!!  I just have to remember this!

Everyone Has a Bad Day

I have to remember this.  I feel extreme guilt when I have a bad day.  It goes into the evening, apologizing to my husband, then I go to bed feeling this way, and wake up still feeling guilty.  Guilt that I didn't show enough attention to Angelina the day before, not cleaning as much as I should, not fixing a healthy dinner, ect, and thats not a good way to start a day off!  So I am done feeling this way.  Who cares if I through in corn dogs for dinner, at least we ate.  Who cares if I didn't vacuum the kitchen and bathroom floors, the dust bunnies aren't going anywhere.  And Angelina's needs are attended to, and she still loves me even though I didn't play that game she wanted to.  I just have to let myself have a bad day once in a while, right?

Even though I have always been honest on this blog, it was time to get honest with myself.  I have a long road ahead of myself, but I refuse to stop the journey!  A rest stop here and there, but I must keep going. 

I have a feeling that this blog is going to turn in the direction of my weight loss and getting my diabetes in control.  Please let me know if you would like to see me start a new blog for just that purpose and keep this blog the way its started! 

Its Finished

The Quilt that is!

I finished it this morning after what happened last night.  Here are a few shots of it...and yes I am already cutting out another pattern....this time PJ Pants for Miss Angelina!!!!

Ok I Can Take A Hint

One thing goes wrong, ok, two things go wrong, WFT, three things go wrong, TIME TO GO TO BED!!!

I was hoping to put the finishing touches on my quilt tonight.  I had the binding left to do, so I was pretty confident I could do it.  Well its taking a lot longer then I expected, but its alright.  I then decided to "Stitch in the Ditch" instead of hand sew around the quilt.  (Since I didn't have a needle to hand stitch with, I know you can roll your eyes now lol)
Well for whatever reason I guess it was a bad decision.  It was one of those decisions I spent all evening going back and forth.  But once I was done ironing the binding, I was just so close to finishing it, I decided to not wait until tomorrow to go to the fabric store to get a needle, and just GET IT DONE TONIGHT!
I guess the stars had other plans, and things kept going wrong...

1.) My needle broke on the machine...luckily I had some already here at home, so no biggie I'll change it.

2.) The bobbin runs out  (And I didn't have any in reserve) ok getting frustrated, about to call it a night, but nah I can change the bobbin.

3.) The thread runs out in the middle of threading the bobbin.

OK I give up for tonight.  For whatever reason I just wasn't "supposed" to finish this quilt tonight.  Yes I have more thread, but I just feel I ignored two signs to call it a night, and by the third it was just time to listen!

Off to bed, frustrated, mad, bummed...and sad

Wordless Wednesday

I will have an hour and 1/2 left of Wednesday right?  Here ya go!

P.S. Still not done!  LOL

Suspence Can Be Fun

Especially if you are on my side!

Two parenting lessons happened today and I wish to share it! But my favorite show is on :-)
Parenthood! Seems fitting for my post don't ya think?

So tomorrow bright and early I will tell my tale!

Night night

I Am So Proud Of....

...I bet you thought I was going to say Angelina.  :-)

But nope I'm going to say, Me and My Sister Kelli!!!

We started our own little exercising routine thingy together.  We are Walking Away the Pounds every morning!  I let her borrow one of my many WATP Dvds and we are each doing at least a mile and two miles if its a day off from work.  We started a week ago (Tuesday Nov 2nd)  we both took Saturday off from exercising, but other then that we haven't missed a day! 

One highlight of my day is when I get to text her "One Mile of WATP DONE!!!!" 

Thanks Sis' for the motivation!!!

P.S. I have lost 1 pound so far!!!  I'll have to ask her if she's weighed in or not.  Either way, I bet she's feeling great!