I am not sure what it was this evening, but something got me thinking. Does Dieting mean Giving Up Something? Or Should it mean that rather. This is still a debate for me.
Ever since I have felt the need to lose weight (Junior'ish in High school) I have felt that I had to give up something to get the weight off. Now I know giving up candy bars is necessary, but I'm not talking about Candy, or the obvious things here.
Through out the end of my high school years I dabbled in giving up food all together. I remember clearly eating little to nothing during the day, but not being able to continue once I got home. I never lost weight.
About a year after I graduated, I did it again. This time it worked. I was able to get through the day with little to nothing to eat, and I was showing results. It was easier this time around because I was busy with College, Work, and Tutoring. This went on until I met Mike, which was in 2003. Then I fell in love, and got comfortable, and gained all of what I lost and then some.
I remember at one point I wanted to lose the weight and new I couldn't give up food, so I gave up Carbs. That didn't work, so I gave up Sugar, ALL SUGAR. At this point we got married and pregnant, and baby fat was cute to have :-) I didn't think about dieting for months after having Angelina. But then the urge to give up food snuck up again. Needless to say it didn't work.
Then I decided to give up Meat, then it was all processed foods, when that wasn't giving me the results, I just moved on to something else to "give up"
I am currently not consuming Dairy. I thought I would try it for a week and see what happens.
I think I have some sort of mentality that I have to Give Up something. Like I am punishing myself. Or disguising my want to lose weight. I was discussing this is Mike, and I mentioned, maybe I have the need to cover up what I'm doing, the end result is to lose weight, but I have to tell people that I am not eating "something" so they wouldn't know I'm actually on a diet. Is this making sense to anyone out there? Wow I am a mess aren't I?
So this is where this leads me. I am not going to deprive myself of anything. I am going to just use small portion control, listen to my body when I'm full, and just LIVE!!!! No worries, and see how I feel. Of course I will keep you all updated, and if anyone has any thoughts or suggestions or anything that you think might help me out, please let me know!!!
P.S. I know how bad not eating is, and I will never do that again! Thanks for always reading! Hugs!